Tuesday, June 7, 2016

In the stars

theres nothing left. Words can't do it justice, they cant put a name on what this experience has been. the torture, the loss, the sudden heaviness that overshadows every day. Im dead already, every breath I take is pulling me away from her, every moment I walk on the ground I should be under is a step out of place. Im tied to her, our souls are in the stars, this world cant understand the way the universe first aligned to bring us together and then ripped us apart. There is no meaning to this, its fucked up just like everything else. theres no grand lesson, no purpose to the way things happened. God is dead, shes dead, Im dead. The universe is in chaotic order. its a race against time, its a gamble at best. if you find the one and can hold on to them , call yourself the lucky one. When you find the one and they are taken from this earth you become the very definition of star-crossed lovers. Never fulfilled, never seen to fruition. being torn navel to chin, my insides torn asunder. How can one survive such a brutal attack.Im knocked to my knees, I'm  face down in filth, I'm clawing the earth to get back to her. I have lived beyond my time, my time without her is a weapon I cannot control. My lungs expand each time aching to breath her in. My hollow chest ever aching. Shes gone, theres no bringing her back. So I go to her over and over, pleading, take me with you. For one more touch, to kiss her lips would bring me back to life. How ironic that to live I must die, To love I must leave. Goodbye to those souls who have truly seen me. Im in the stars with the only one I truly loved. Count me as I fall from the sky and make a wish. There I am unending, there you can see, I found her once again.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

In My Hands


Im brittle.
My hands tremble holding whats left of her
The weight heavy but fleeting
Unencumbered by gravity I feel her lifting from my palms
Her energy so tangible
her breath on my neck, I deeply sigh
My eyes close and for a moment we are suspended 
our skin hot, our sinews embedded and intertwined
we are

the air thick with sadness
the atmosphere tinged with sorrow 
the earth ripped from its axis
we arent

my chest heaves
the aching
my hands tremble holding whats left of her

my heart beats, willing life with out me
my lungs breathe, the sting of  death seething
my blood runs, escaping from my eyes

I see her
at a glance shes there, running from herself
inside me, clinging to me, shes there
my ribs caging her, her song unsung

what was is gone
what would be never to be done
in her I found my
self
we were

vital organs useless things that fill now empty space inside of me
skin covering bare bones
the last of us lost

suspended we are, the heavens heavy
I tie her to me, veins exposed
I hold her gently
together we are, apart we are not
forever never
we are