Tuesday, June 7, 2016

In the stars

theres nothing left. Words can't do it justice, they cant put a name on what this experience has been. the torture, the loss, the sudden heaviness that overshadows every day. Im dead already, every breath I take is pulling me away from her, every moment I walk on the ground I should be under is a step out of place. Im tied to her, our souls are in the stars, this world cant understand the way the universe first aligned to bring us together and then ripped us apart. There is no meaning to this, its fucked up just like everything else. theres no grand lesson, no purpose to the way things happened. God is dead, shes dead, Im dead. The universe is in chaotic order. its a race against time, its a gamble at best. if you find the one and can hold on to them , call yourself the lucky one. When you find the one and they are taken from this earth you become the very definition of star-crossed lovers. Never fulfilled, never seen to fruition. being torn navel to chin, my insides torn asunder. How can one survive such a brutal attack.Im knocked to my knees, I'm  face down in filth, I'm clawing the earth to get back to her. I have lived beyond my time, my time without her is a weapon I cannot control. My lungs expand each time aching to breath her in. My hollow chest ever aching. Shes gone, theres no bringing her back. So I go to her over and over, pleading, take me with you. For one more touch, to kiss her lips would bring me back to life. How ironic that to live I must die, To love I must leave. Goodbye to those souls who have truly seen me. Im in the stars with the only one I truly loved. Count me as I fall from the sky and make a wish. There I am unending, there you can see, I found her once again.